on endings

1. Time flies. Flies, I tell you! I'm already halfway through college. 
2. ^^^this terrifies me. Mostly because, um, when did that happen?
3. I'm afraid of loneliness. Of going through this whole college thing, and coming out alone. I'm spending 4 years with these friends, and then what? Do we all return to our own corners of the world, find jobs, and maybe see each other in ten years? I don't know how this works.
4. My boss at work this week told me that after college, you never really get another fresh start. She said that in college, each semester is like a clean slate, but once you get to the real life part, you never get that again. 
5. ...WHAT. what. 
6. This week was the film showcase for this semester. So good, so so good. My peers are so talented. I've never been more inspired, or determined, to create beautiful films and photos. 
7. How did this year go by so fast? How is it possible that I only have 3 days left? How is my sophomore year over? Gah!
8. Making playlists and listening to old songs from high school just make me more nostalgic, which isn't helping. 
9. I'd like to make this list ten things long, but I've already repeated myself a few times with nine...
10. I think I'm just afraid of getting to the end of my time at college, and having to ask these questions again.